Monday, February 7th

Time to be honest.   Since I'm an emotional eater (normally) perhaps I'd better include some of my emotions.   
    After church, my friend and I were grocery shopping.   I started feeling dizzy.   Urgh.   Not again.   I know I just finished my antibiotics Thursday, but....  Well, maybe I could just be tired since I'd stayed up with 1AM both Friday and Saturday nights to watch movies.   Surely THAT was why I was dizzy.   (Later when watching the Superbowl, I was careful not to move my head quickly as I was still a tinge dizzy.  Even later than that, when I got up from my recliner to show a friend to the door, I told her my body felt heavy.   I found that odd.)

    Yesterday on the ride back from church, I don't know what triggered it, but my mind went back to some events that bring great sorrow.    I cried a bit, told myself I'm not that same person, and moved on.   At the Superbowl party, I teared up because that same issue came back to mind.   I drank some water and focused on the game.   Then at home last night, I finally let myself be sad and angry.   I SOBBED.   I haven't cried that hard in awhile.   I exhausted myself, so I ended up going to bed around 9:30.   (I was texting a friend for a bit, though, so probably didn't sleep until around 10.)

   I woke up on my own and felt completely wide awake, but when I looked at my watch and it said 4AM, I decided I would NOT get up.    I woke again at 6AM and laid in be until about 6:30, but could no longer stand it, so I got up to do some things around the house.   I felt like I'd had plenty of sleep.   Still I felt a bit odd; like maybe I was coming down with something.   Then after making 2 phone calls (to credit card companies to check on my recent transactions), I noticed my headache and that I was getting dizzy - FAST.    I texted a coworker that I'd need to lay down and didn't know when I'd be able to make it to work.   I took Sudafed and Ibuprofen.    I tried to do work, but couldn't because I was so dizzy.  I laid in bed for about 30 minutes and then texted that I was going to work!   Well, then I got out of bed and had to sit right back down.   Forget that idea!   URGH!     Long story short, I finally went to work around 12:30, and was still a little dizzy.  

   Around 3PM, my headache came back.   This is just like my pattern back in November and December!    I decided to call and try to make an appointment to be seen by the doctor again.  (Closed.  Left message.)      I don't think it's lack of sleep because I ended up sleeping from 9-10 AM this morning and then having cat naps until around 11.   Then this evening when I felt bad (my temp was 99.4), I laid down on the couch and slept for an hour.    I don't think it's my eyes since I wasn't on the computer alot today and my headache started first thing this morning and only came again when the medicines wore off.  Someone suggested stress.  Though my job IS VERY stressful, I'd been relaxing and watching lots of movies this weekend.    (Yes, I cried hard last night, but I wasn't thinking about that this morning.)   Who knows????


  OK....now that I'm done whining and trying to figure things out, let me go ahead and tell you all what I ate today:

I was going to have eggs for breakfast, but since I was feeling bad and fading fast, I quickly ATE (not slowly letting it melt in my mouth like normal) a Fudgesicle and went to bed.

Around 11AM,  I scrambled 2 eggs and forced myself to eat them.

Around 1PM, I was feeling hot, so I ate 2 Creamsicles.

At 8:30 PM, I ate a small bowl of Jello.

Now I'm going home to put in a movie and try to sleep.    If my headache is too bad to sleep, then I might have to give in to more medicine, but I really don't want to take it so often...   I'm not hungry and just don't care at all about eating today.

  Hope I feel better tomorrow.