Woke up at 6:30 and laid in bed just thinking about one thing, then another thing....Got frustrated & angry about an issue, cried a bit, and then got my rear out of bed! Wandered aimlessly for a few minutes until deciding to sew up the holes in the inside liner of my snowpants. (It's been getting worse over the years.) So, I popped in a movie that I've had for a month and have been needing to return anyway. I was still feeling angry and sorry for myself, so I DID IT..... I returned to the old me, the old destructive pattern....I ate junk! I was being a cranky, whiny butt and frankly didn't care about a stinkin' diet plan. "I blew it last night, so who cares??? Let's just blow it for another day!!!!"
I ate about 8 Oreo-type cookies dunked in milk. Then I snacked on
some Doritos (probably would've been as many as are in one of those GrabBags). Not a healthy breakfast! Ha!
(WOW!!! THIS IS EXACTLY THE PATTERN THAT LED ME DOWN THIS PATH OF SLOW SELF-DESTRUCTION. IT IS THIS PRECISE WAY OF THINKING - FEELING SAD AND DEFEATED- THAT MUST GO!!!! Of course, I can say this now because it's a day later, but while I'm in the pits, it's hard to talk myself out of it. I need to have something to do each day as soon as I get up, so I don't lay in bed and just think...."The idle mind is the Devil's playground." Perhaps I now see some truth in that old saying.)
Around 2PM, I had a gyro sandwich (pita bread with lamb and cucumber ranch-like dressing with a few tomatoes for garnish) and french fries, water to drink, and a chocolate milk shake -not because I needed that, but because it was what my normal order at that restaurant was and I felt like having it. No self-discipline even attempted.
A bit later in the afternoon, I got a headache....one of those normal sinus pressure ones. Then around 5:30 I started feeling dizzy so I laid down. I talked to my uncle on the phone for over an hour (which was great because I felt like hours of my life were just going to be wasted since I was to dizzy to really do anything...including watching TV or reading a book. Grrrr....) Then I got tired around 7PM and told some friends I'd take a little nap, but probably hang out with them later! HA! I was completely OUT until 6:30 the next morning! The good thing there is that I ate no dinner!!!! :)
An odd day, but I sewed my snowpants, can return a movie and get a new one in the mail, and I helped a friend!!! Not nearly as productive as I imagined my Saturday would be, but we can't predict headaches. I think I'm just going to have to allow for more rest time until I kick this sinus infection.
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